Emo Emo Mommy

the itchiness of the expanding tummy and the ugliness of stretchmarks are getting on my nerves! pregnancy is really a tough time not because u have to carry it anywhere n everywhere for 9 months, but the things u have to endure for the period of 9 months. i know i know everyone knows that. but really, knowing and having to endure it are two different things. dont tell me u know how i feel (unless u’ve been thru pregnancy before). its different. one time i was complaining abt my back pain to my bro in law and he said “memangla macam tu dik *with his hey-i-know-how-u-feel- face*”. I FEEL LIKE SMACKING HIM THAT VERY MOMENT. seriously, normal back pain n pregnancy back pain is DIFFERENT. dont say it like u’ve been thru it. its stressful enough to have to endure it, n having to hear someone said it like its nothing is just making me so very angry. i dont care if i’m over reacting abt something like that. u can never tell. pregnant woman can easily get mad or sad over something so small. TRUST ME. i’ve been thru that. n i hate to say that my family have seen me in that position. crying over something so ridiculously small. but they didnt say anything. they know its the hormones. so GUYS OUT THERE, PLEASE, BE MORE UNDERSTANDING TOWARDS UR WIFE ESPECIALLY WHEN SHE IS PREGNANT. dont argue so much with her if she asks for something ridiculous or need u to help her over something small. WE ARE CARRYING UR BABY, RIGHT? so please be more considerate. i’m lucky to have my Joe cause he didnt question or argue when i ask him to help do something, or when i didnt fold up a mountain of washed clothes, or iron his work clothes or even clean the hse. he never argue any of that. sometimes i do feel guilty for not being a good wife, but then again my body is so tired even when i’m not doing anything at all. i cant stand for too long cause i’ll feel dizzy so when i cook, i need to sit down occasionally. i cant bend down so much cause my back hurts, i cant even get up fast from sofa cause my big belly is limiting my movement. and yes it goes on n on n on n it never stops. something new will happen every single day. but aside all these ‘complaints’, its worth it when i can feel my baby’s kicking. this kiddo kicks a lot. hehe. lately when i have trouble sleeping, kiddo will kick. maybe to let me know that i’m not alone. it feels like mommy-baby moment sometimes. like we’re communicating.

i cant wait to see my kiddo so so much. mommy will go for another scan to see u in a few weeks ok sayang.

p/s: our last visit to gynae few weeks ago for gender scanning didnt pay off. we still dont know whether kiddo is a boy or girl. nevertheless, we have this picture! kiddo is sooo big already.